"New & Different"
Hi, akino is here AGAIN!!! Is my blog anyway.....well...i kinda lazy to type and write though.
Ermm....what shall i talk about??? Hmmm.....i recently participated a camp which is quite fun and is my first time to lead the prayer is a no bad experience (though i am lacking of words) but i hate my stamina!!! Stamina!! you so BAD BAD BAD!!!
But anyway i need to train myself....More n ALWAYS!!!
Yup....That's our camp hehehehe....
I hope one day i can run like a normal people although for now i am still afraid of the activity that involve running...
I dont want to mention it.....but for sure i need to train for it....
I think i had became a different person recently which i could play around and joke around more easily...
I know even me myself get surprised when i react to people joke.....before that i am still kinda reserve of what should i say and how should i say and what will people think of me when i say that...
I sometimes also get frustrated of how to start a conversation....but now i can and that takes time..
Through this camp i had make a decision that is to let all the personal thing and story to be seal away forever in some corner.....
Thanks to the last semester's obstacle and this semester's evangelism night (although i listen to nothing) i learnt that in order to be happy i have to overcome another version of me that keep pointing the knife to the one that struggle to break through......
During the camp, there is one section when the pastor ask all of us to draw our family diagram and to think of our family relationship and my brain is just plain blank......when i observe everyone that busy drawing i realized how blessed all you guys are
But at the same time i also want to say thank you to our Lord at least you guys don't need to go through what i am going through....i also hope that there are no one in this world that are facing the obstacle same as me....obviously there are something that have not been say out even to my closet friends.....
Every life has its own story....we are all storyteller...and God is the story creator....
SO FROM NOW ON THIS STORY WILL BE SEAL AWAY FOREVER & ETERNAL
The real version of me that being suppress and locked up in some dark corner is the one that would treat myself as if i am a man not a woman.....
Because i learnt that from my childhood till now "Every problems shall be solve by myself by my own hands because in this world there are no one i can rely on" so in order to do that i need to become strong like a man....
I will hook up to this lesson to my last breath......
So!!! I guess that's all the update from me now....i'm also glad that i could return to the church and participate the activities once again after absent for one semester...
God Bless and Gud nite ~~~ ^_^
Ermm....what shall i talk about??? Hmmm.....i recently participated a camp which is quite fun and is my first time to lead the prayer is a no bad experience (though i am lacking of words) but i hate my stamina!!! Stamina!! you so BAD BAD BAD!!!
But anyway i need to train myself....More n ALWAYS!!!
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| This is the Niah Cave |
Yup....That's our camp hehehehe....
I hope one day i can run like a normal people although for now i am still afraid of the activity that involve running...
I dont want to mention it.....but for sure i need to train for it....
I think i had became a different person recently which i could play around and joke around more easily...
I know even me myself get surprised when i react to people joke.....before that i am still kinda reserve of what should i say and how should i say and what will people think of me when i say that...
I sometimes also get frustrated of how to start a conversation....but now i can and that takes time..
Through this camp i had make a decision that is to let all the personal thing and story to be seal away forever in some corner.....
Thanks to the last semester's obstacle and this semester's evangelism night (although i listen to nothing) i learnt that in order to be happy i have to overcome another version of me that keep pointing the knife to the one that struggle to break through......
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| 两次布道会服侍的经验告诉我：‘ 我必须跨越那个一直伤害自己充满怨言悲观的我这样我才能 |
During the camp, there is one section when the pastor ask all of us to draw our family diagram and to think of our family relationship and my brain is just plain blank......when i observe everyone that busy drawing i realized how blessed all you guys are
But at the same time i also want to say thank you to our Lord at least you guys don't need to go through what i am going through....i also hope that there are no one in this world that are facing the obstacle same as me....obviously there are something that have not been say out even to my closet friends.....
Every life has its own story....we are all storyteller...and God is the story creator....
SO FROM NOW ON THIS STORY WILL BE SEAL AWAY FOREVER & ETERNAL
The real version of me that being suppress and locked up in some dark corner is the one that would treat myself as if i am a man not a woman.....
Because i learnt that from my childhood till now "Every problems shall be solve by myself by my own hands because in this world there are no one i can rely on" so in order to do that i need to become strong like a man....
I will hook up to this lesson to my last breath......
So!!! I guess that's all the update from me now....i'm also glad that i could return to the church and participate the activities once again after absent for one semester...
God Bless and Gud nite ~~~ ^_^
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